- What do my kids need?
- What is my work schedule today?
- How many meetings do I have?
- What conversations do I need to engage?
- What location do I need to drive?
- What should I wear?
- Will my body cooperate today?
- Will I be liked?
- Will I be accepted?
- Will I be enough?
- Will I be believed?
- Will I be safe?
- Will my child be bullied?
- Will the color of my skin be a barrier for me today?
- Will I have enough money to buy gas?
- Will I have enough money to eat?
- Will I have a bed to sleep in tonight?
Like everyone, there have been times in my life that I woke up with tears because I was grieving a loss, worried about another, or suffering because of conflict. I have certainly had those restless nights where I worry about finances, a child’s well-being, or significant decisions. However, I can say that on average, I do not wake up with major crisis on my mind. Instead, I wake up thinking about the tactical aspects of my day. And yet, as I work, write, interact, research, and live in this world, I am becoming more and more socially aware of what I do not experience.
It is an unspoken privilege to wake up and not immediately think about the color of my skin. Many of my African American friends and colleagues cannot say the same thing. I also did not realize until recently what a gift it is to wake up and not worry if I would be called a liar. Lots of women cannot say the same thing. I pray my daughter will never have to experience this.
What do you wake up thinking about?